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Year of the Horse
03:03
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it's been a while since i last cried
i drown out the thoughts of suicide
with chemicals and lots of pills
but i guess its still cheaper than a hospital bill
but now i feel so numb and empty
i wouldn't care if the world was ending
i have goals and pacific coast dreams
i also have low self esteem
socrates
and the apostles creed
and everything else that i've ever believed
is it all a sham is it all a lie?
i admit i'm afraid to die
alone
alone
i dont want to die alone
alone alone
i dont want to die on my own
i just wanna tour around the world
and matter the most to just one girl
but i dont think that i ever will
everything moves fast but i stand still
now i am so numb and empty
i wouldn't care if the world was ending
i've got problems with no remedies
i've also got self destructive tendencies
im a fucking loser and i dont talk to girls
and i've never had a teenage romance unfurl
i listen to the beach boys in the darkness of my room
and i make my own music in the hopes of getting you
with me
with me
in holy matrimony
with me with me
i am so lonely
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2. |
Animals
03:06
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i like the radio and the tv screens
and everything in between
i like the sound of music and melodies
and the chemicals inside of me
theres poison in the water and shit in the air
its killing me slowly but i dont even care
the color in my life is starting to turn
gray
but i'll deal with it everyday
and the world is run on money and greed
and they dont want to see you succeed
but i live in a constant state of fear and apathy
so whats that really got to do with me
i dont really care at all
we're disgusting animals
its all just pointless talk
if we were all dead we'd better off
get your hands in the mud
make sure that you spill some blood
fuck the population and fuck the earth
everyday just gets worse
yeah yeah yeah i hate it here i hate it all the time
yeah yeah yeah i cant believe that this is really my life
yeah yeah yeah where did it start where did it start to decline
yeah yeah yeah im not suicidal but i really want to die
the world never cared about me
so i dont owe it anything
i know that at any time i can choose to leave
but i just want to be happy
i dont really care at all
we're some fucking animals
its all just pointless talk
if we were all dead we'd better off
get your hands in the mud
make sure that you spill some blood
fuck the population and fuck the earth
everyday just gets worse
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3. |
Golden Boy
04:56
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im sorry that im not the best you think i could be
i know you expected so much more from me
im sorry that i couldnt do anything to make you proud
now its too late because you're no longer around
i dont want to feel like i disappointed you
so please tell me is there anything that i can do
and i dont know exactly when i'll grow up
but i'll do my best and i hope that's enough
i wanna run away i wanna get out
i gotta leave today i wanna leave now
the pressure under the weather
what will it take for me to feel better
i do everything that should make me feel right
why do i wake up every day and still hate my fucking life
i cant believe it that i even made it this far
i look at the night sky but i cant see any stars
i wake up by myself in a bed built for two
i slept in too long check the time and its already noon
will i do anything worthwhile today
never let them tell you that we all are the same
i know its not right to be awake this late
but i prefer the night i dont really like the day
and i wish it was the other way around
im an empty shell im lost but not yet found
i hate that i know theres more to life than this
because im so afraid to leave from my abyss
im under pressure under the weather
what will it take for me to feel better
theres things that i wanna do that i will never see
goals that i have set but wont ever achieve
my heads in the air and my feet are on the ground
my brain is fucked up and my eyes are spinning round
im not sure if i'll be fine
i am afraid to die
when does it get better i dont know
i dont really talk at all
i wont answer when you call
i think im just gonna go back home
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4. |
UCLA
04:16
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often i find myself stuck somewhere i dont want to be
im starting to think that theres something really wrong with me
i dont really go out much i mostly stay at home
but if i dont go out sometime soon i'll probably die alone
i must confess i am oh so afraid
times running out and i think its far too late
im looking for a girl that was never even born
the death of a fantasy that is far too pitiful to mourn
i never cared about politics and the bullshit of it all
i dont care about anything my opinion is just too small
i've walked around the entire world and i would do it twice
im still looking for something thats missing from my life
and i dont even know what im looking for and i ask myself why
i feel so sad all the time but i can rarely cry
i know i have to love myself before someone else loves me
believe me ive been really trying but its just not that easy
i just wish that i had a normal brain
without the constant anxiety that drives me insane
maybe one day i will end up just fine
and i will no longer feel so dead inside
now i know that i dont have to be afraid
and now i know it's not too late its gonna be okay
i cannot wait for when you are here with me
when i can finally feel completely at ease
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5. |
Die (Okinawa)
05:24
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where are you going where have you been
what have you done now how have you sinned
flowers will grow when the rain starts to fall
over your head to a hundred feet tall
do you want to study abroad do you want to see your god
there is a graveyard just for the cops
dont you want the pain to stop
i didnt come here to start a fight
im dancing all alone tonight
where do we go when the horses run free
and whats that mean for you and me
when we die i hope we'll be fine
when we die i hope we'll be alright
dont meet your heroes they dont care about you
theyre all assholes and thats the truth
i cant feel my face im going through a phase
i hate everything i do i hate everything ive done
i hate when tragedy strikes out of the blue
and i hate everyone
i wanna move to LA i wanna have a good time
i want to go insane i wanna lose my fucking mind
i dont ever want to think again i never wanna think twice
if i could stay young and dumb
wouldn't it be nice
when we die i hope we'll be fine
when we die i hope we'll be alright
what will you do
shes not here anymore
would you have said
the things you did not say before
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